and too busy to do anything else.
We get tired, exhausted and stressed out
most of the time.
But we feel something's missing.
there comes a time when everything
just gets boring and monotonous
as if life has never changed at all.
There's nothing new to expect the entire day.
Suddenly you sit on a chair
feeling like something is coming up.
You pause, and then take a deep breath
and stare at a single place in the room.
Then you feel hypnotized.
You feel you're in a trance.
But you compose yourself right away
or get carried away.
A lot of thoughts come to mind this time:
thoughts of your youth and how you're living it,
about your family, friends
and those who are close to your heart.
It makes you smile most of the time
while these thoughts pass you by.
Then suddenly you think about love.
The very thought of it stops your smile,
and turns it into a pout
for you know you don't have it now.
You wish you had,
but somehow you never had it.
You feel confused and troubled.
You know you're successful in your career
and in your relationships
with your family and friends.
But how come you don't have a boyfriend
or a girlfriend.
You're trying to find the reasons,
but you just can't.
You stand up and find a mirror in the wall,
and you try to scrutinize
every detail of your body
most especially your face.
You're trying to find a spot or wrinkle
or anything else that seems to be the cause
of not having someone special.
Surprisingly you don't find anything at all.
You think you're attractive enough
and lovable too.
Then you go back straight to the same chair
you sat on a while ago,
then you keep still.
You lean back a little,
then you lay there staring
in the farthest corner of the room.
You entertain a lot of thoughts again
but this time
all about love and loving
and having a relationship
with someone special that you choose.
You see him/her face to face,
close enough to embrace.
Your heart sings out loud
and your emotions run sky-high.
You kiss his/her lips,
and you feel they're very sweet and edible.
You want to bite them out of excitement
but you can't because you don't want to hurt.
You just hug tighter and tighter
and no plans of letting go of the moment.
You just want to be as close as you can be.
You want to feel every part of his/her body
so your hands spread from the back to his/her shoulders,
to his/her face, then all over down his/her body.
And every part you touch
is like a piece of heaven scattered on his/her body,
and you just want to have it all.
There's a nervousness that you feel
but you keep going on what you're doing.
You don't want to stop for every moment is a bliss.
You don't want it to end.
You think he/she is the one for you,
the one who makes you truly happy forever.
He/She is your true love and true soulmate.
You are both perfect for each other,
and nobody can take that perfection away from you both.
You feel that heaven and earth are witnesses to your love,
and all the heavenly bodies sing of your love.
And now your love story is written in the stars.
The gods rejoice when they see you both in love,
and the whole universe is in a festive mood.
Every living being attest to your true love.
The sight of the both of you
is an object of jealousy among everyone.
Surely you feel you are the happiest people
in the whole world.
You don't care at all
when you show your love to him/her;
and you don't care if you kiss in public.
from doing anything that tell of your love.
Even if you're being ridiculed by others,
you don't care at all.
You don't wanna stop what you're doing
and you think people are just jealous
because they don't have their soulmates with them.
You think they're just miserable
and you are the most fortunate of them all!
Every moment is living in paradise.
His/Her smile is pure and genuine,
one that tells he's/she's in love with you
as much as you do or even more.
Your heart is beating faster than normal
as if it's gonna burst any moment.
You're in a comfortable room fully air-conditioned
but you still feel like you're out in the sun outside.
But still you go on with those thoughts
for somehow you feel more alive.
You're all alone in the room and nothing
and nobody seems to bother you.
You can't have enough of him/her in your thoughts.
His/Her eyes are magical
like a sparkling gem of the finest quality;
his/her hair is smooth and smells good enough;
his/her nose and lips are placed in exquisite symmetry.
His/Her body is envied by all.
You've never seen someone as beautiful
and as lovable as him/her.
He/She is the only perfect human being in the world!
It sounds impossible but for you it's true.
Your emotions are still sky-high
and you're thrusted to the loftiest heavens.
You are in a flood of love miles and miles in diameter.
You want to enjoy every moment swimming on it
and even thinking of drowning in it.
Then you look around you now.
You see the mountains
suddenly blooms with the rarest flowers
as if it suddenly turns into a Garden Of Eden.
Up above you look at the sun
and you see it's more brilliant than ever before
but it's not hurting your eyes and skin.
Then a cool breeze sweeps in and caressing every part
of your body with a luxurious perfume.
You want to smell over and over until you're satisfied.
And everywhere you look you find it is no longer
the earth that you use to know;
you're already living in the home of the gods or some place
you can call the abode of the angels!
You want to stay in this moment forever.
You have no plans of going anywhere else.
You are about to close your eyes this very moment
when suddenly you come to your senses!
It was all in your mind; it was all in your thoughts.
Everything vanishes like smoke.
You want to go back to that trance-like state but you can't now.
You feel sad and lonely and you're wishing
everything was real but no,
it was all a daydream.
So there's nothing else to do now but accept
that you don't have a true love or true soulmate;
you just made it all up in your mind.
Nothing there was true;
clearly everything was your creation.
How you wish to have it again;
how you wish to make it come true.
Then realization comes in at this very moment:
you don't have a special someone
like you had in your daydream;
and you are totally unhappy about it.
You feel miserable.
You want to scream;
you want to get out of the room fast
and run away to anywhere it takes you.
But you try to calm down and relax a bit.
you get up and walk to the window.
You look far and beyond the sky.
Tears are about to form and you try to stop it.
But they just pour down heavily on your cheeks.
You can't help it.
Your heart is truly hurt by the fact
that you don't have anybody you can call your own
as if nobody loves you and nobody even cares.
But you assure yourself everything is gonna be alright.
You wipe the tears from your eyes
and still looking up the dome of the heavens
you say a little prayer:
a prayer of thanks for everything that you have
including your strength to endure your troubles,
and a prayer request to God that
He may send you the special someone that you long for.
Afterwards you feel relieved
and all your worries are gone away.
Somehow that cry and that little prayer
you just did
help you feel better.
And then you smile now knowing
that everything is going to be alright.